I have had a daily practice of meditation for going on forty years now. It isn’t any particular brand of meditation, although I’ve tried many different methods. About thirty years ago, I had an experience that affected me profoundly. I wrote it down and have kept it where I could read it once in a while. The page it is written on is yellowed and ragged-edged. I am going to recount that experience here.
“I entered into a space—it seemed like a room, but there were no boundaries. It felt populated by presences, and then as I just stayed with the experience, it felt more like a single Presence. The whole feeling in the room was that of total, focused, intense interest. I felt as though this Presence couldn’t wait to see what I would choose to do next! Presence was completely absorbed by the unfolding of me in particular, as when one is completely taken up in a book such that it is impossible to put the book down—the story has you—it holds your interest completely. As I continued the meditation with unwavering attention, I began to experience this Presence holding that same level of intense interest in Humanity. I experienced the attention of this Presence absolutely riveted upon us. I felt no judgment, only care and excited interest.”
When I first experienced this meditation, I didn’t quite know what to make of it. And to tell the truth, it kind of scared me. But as I’ve continued to work with it, I have experienced more of this Presence’s interest, sometimes even as I go about the business of living my everyday life. If you have ever been walking along a sidewalk, looked across the street and caught a glimpse of yourself in a building’s reflection unexpectedly, and had the feeling of surprise and not quite recognition—that is a wisp of what this feels like. I’m afraid that’s not explained very well, but it’s the best I can do right now. In more recent years, I have come to know that my life—what I choose to do with each moment—best mirrors the quality of this Presence when I am completely absorbed and interested in what I am doing.
Lately, I have spent most of my days completely absorbed and interested in my work. I will tell you more about that in my next post (and I won’t wait so long to do that!).
From my wild soul to yours,