I am so grateful this morning…
For a number of things, the first of which is that I am experiencing the sensation of being floated in love, throughout my body, all night long, and most of the time during the day.
The second is that I don’t have to go out and work for someone else to make a living anymore. I realize that I am extraordinarily fortunate in that regard. I can have long, slow mornings, drink my two cups of coffee and write in my journal, meditate, eat breakfast, and take a morning walk (all before noon, I might add). I am overwhelmingly grateful for that!
The third is that I am discovering how to live life itself as an adventure, and am uncovering the habits I’ve had that prevent me from doing so. I have no idea if this will communicate, but here goes. The habit has been to create a story in my mind about something that is going on in life, according to which I then live. The story is always about what is going to happen at some future point in time—a couple of weeks, a couple of months, and even a year or two. During the period of time in which I am unconsciously living the story, instead of living life in the moment, I neglect to ask myself what I am interested in, or curious about. I simply live the story. Then something happens to “wake me up.”
I’ve actually done this all of my life, so it’s a well-ingrained habit. The habit is changing. I notice that the storyline is always aligned with a culturally embedded conventional take on life. So one of the things that I can use to alert myself is to notice the feeling of being bored. If I’m bored, I’m not alive in the moment. I’m also not following my interests or noticing the experience of being floated in love.
What it comes down to is this: adventuring will not happen when I “hit the road” if I don’t live life itself as an adventure, being alive inside of each moment. I’m grateful for the chance to whittle this habit down to a bare minimum before I actually leave this house.
And last, but not least, I am grateful for having discovered non-hallucinogenic CBD oil. The x-ray showed bone on bone in my right knee, and I was in constant pain last July when I first arrived in Florida. I was taking Tylenol and Ibuprofen to try to manage the pain and was concerned about that because both can have adverse effects in the body. A neuroscientist recommended that I try CBD oil for pain management instead, as it has healing properties and no adverse effects in the body. It has made an amazing difference! I am now able to walk up to a mile everyday with absolutely no pain. I get the CBD oil at the local health food store, and it just takes ten drops under the tongue each morning.